Whuuuu. I'm still processing the latest thought patterns. We're going to an Open Home on Sunday. 52 Buchanan. Beautiful big house. Flashy, as Crystel puts it. She wants to live in a flashy house. I get it. We've both been through some crazy trauma and deserve good things. But inside me is also this niggling thought that makes me think I don't deserve to. That thought is holding me back. I find it hard to see myself in a fancy, flashy, new house. I prefer to see myself in a villa. Part of that could be conditioning while growing up. Maybe it's to do with my preconceived notions and ideas about wealth. Maybe I still have more work to do. At present - my list of house options: 52 Buchanan Street Ōpōtiki * 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms * newer house * Not much section * Pizza oven * Big garage * Big white gates * Open plan living and kitchen 32 Potts Ave * 2 bedrooms, 2 toilets, 1 shower over bath * Co...