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71 Union Street Ōpōtiki
I'm still processing the latest thought patterns.
We're going to an Open Home on Sunday. 52 Buchanan. Beautiful big house. Flashy, as Crystel puts it.
She wants to live in a flashy house.
I get it.
We've both been through some crazy trauma and deserve good things.
But inside me is also this niggling thought that makes me think I don't deserve to. That thought is holding me back.
I find it hard to see myself in a fancy, flashy, new house.
I prefer to see myself in a villa.
Part of that could be conditioning while growing up. Maybe it's to do with my preconceived notions and ideas about wealth.
Maybe I still have more work to do.
At present - my list of house options:
* 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms
* newer house
* Not much section
* Pizza oven
* Big garage
* Big white gates
* Open plan living and kitchen
* 2 bedrooms, 2 toilets, 1 shower over bath
* Corner section
* Big pohutukawa tree and well established harakeke pu
* Beautiful deck
* Opposite the DLT
* Down the road from the skatepark
* Opposite the campground
* Close to new marina/harbour development
* Corner section
* Claw foot bathtub
* Beautiful big rooms
* Big kitchen
* Not much privacy
* Barely any shade for the dogs
3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms (ensuite in master)
* Long house
* Two lounge spaces
* Several bedrooms
* Smallish kitchen
* Nice porch
* Sectioned off back yard - safe for dogs
* Close to walk to skatepark/field for dogs to run around
* Way too much! $$$$$$
* Big section
* Beautiful house
* Big garage
* Open plan living
* Biggish kitchen
* Beautiful rural view
* Fairly big rooms
* Nice deck and porch
And then you know... Coz it's me... I look at the most run down house and think - that looks like the perfect house for me! If only I did it up! I like doer uppers...
And it's true. I do.
But I also deserve to be happy the minute I step into a house. Rather than having to wait to do fixes on a house in order to live in it. 😂🤦♀️
On top of all the indecision - is this thought in the back of my mind - that if I were on my own again. Who would the house be for? Me/my dogs? If I didn't need to consider Crystel and Riley in the equation... What properties would I be looking at?
But it's a moot point. Because even with 30 Windsor, I always had thought of getting at least a 3bdrm so Crystel could come home. I even designed her room. 😂🤦♀️😭
I'm also now watching Crystel as she goes down the same emotional rollercoaster as I went the last few years.
Going to open homes, viewing houses, looking at prices etc.
I see her heart get excited and then a little let down. And even though I try to remind her what happened to me last year - she still gets excited.
I've been through too much heartbreak buying houses.
But I do also want to be excited.
Maybe only once I'm in the house first.
It feels like I'm supressing any affection or attraction to a new person - like trying to remove any emotion from this. So as to not get hurt.
I'm trying to make a rational decision. A decision that will be good as an investment but also as a long term decision for our new home.
Buchanan is still in a not so great area. It's literally round the corner from where we are now. Even though it's a beautiful house. There are some other sections close by where other new houses might be built. Price in that area might still go up.
The only pro about staying here and buying this house in a year's time is that we already know how hōhā the neighbours are (and how good our neighbours are too) and that the neighbours are used to our hōhā dogs 😂
Potts ave is down the road from the pub and the main street. Potential for drunk people to be a hōhā. But also closer for Crystel and Riley to go to the park and walk down town while I'm at kura. It's also close to the theatre! Big positive for us movie geeks ♥️ it's also close to the marina/harbour development and things will be changing quick in that area.
Much to consider.
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